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alaska and the 75 degree december

by callie flemming

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this song is about a girl who goes to my college. she's basically me if i was just a happier and more well adjusted person. maybe she's not happy, actually. i wouldn't know. i resent her without even knowing her! and, yes, i'm painfully aware of the fact that hating people happier than me is a part of the exact mindset that makes me so miserable and lonely in the first place. it sucks, but it's good songwriting material!!!

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[verse 1]
now hold on, one moment, just to preface
this is for a girl i've never met, this
song is nothing but my little
self-aggrandized social suicide

no, i really don't mean to intrude
on the life the drugs carved out for you
so take this with a grain of salt
you'll probably never hear it at all

that being said,
i cannot pretend
that you sit too well
with how i see myself

if you put a lid
on your ego-less id
then i would be fine
with a hundred more nights

[pre-chorus]
in my room
but i'm just so sad i can't be like you

[chorus]
and alaska's getting warmer
and the ice is getting thin
alaska's dressing for the weather
guess it's time to show some skin

and it's great she loves herself,
but does she have to be so loud?
oh, alaska in the high life
only seems to drag me down

[verse 2]
another walking bassline
still more than you deserve
and if you knew me at all, you'd find
this really is minimal effort

oh, i'm really not trying at all
my therapist tells me that i am not trying at all
and that's why i'm still only
me, myself, the one and lonely

[pre-chorus]
not even enough
to get you to tell me to shut up

[chorus]
and alaska's getting warmer
and the ice is getting thin
alaska's dressing for the weather
guess it's time to show some skin

and it's great she loves herself,
but does she have to be so loud?
oh, alaska in the high life
only seems to drag me down

[bridge]
but if i'm rotting alone in my bed
how are you ever gonna see
that (with the greatest intent to offend),
you are just like me

i think you should all be just like;
walk like me, talk like me,
be half as self-absorbed and pathetic as me!

[chorus]
no cold winters for alaska
let the sun shine dusk to dawn
let's all go show some fucking skin
'til the UV rays melt it off!!!!!

you are just another effigy
as far as i can tell
and, baby, if the sin's idolatry
we're all going to hell

you're a costume party martyr
i don't even need to meet, to know
that trying any harder's
just accepting my defeat, you know,

you're lucky that self-sabotage
is the worst that i can do
and, babe, you're lucky that i'm mad
because i wish that i was you

[outro]
and i hate it when you're happy
i'm not frightened to admit
im only scared that self awareness
doesn't justify my bullshit

because maybe you'd be lovely
maybe i'd be better off
but my pride just can't risk being wrong

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released February 1, 2023

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