i never got you to give up being the bigger person.
i got nothing.
i gave up everything.
i have driven away every friend who cares about me.
i refuse medication.
i have lost my supports, as if i were a crumbling bridge flinging homebound workers into a raging river.
but i do not need help.
i haven't moved on, but i am no longer insecure.
i am stable.
i feel well-adjusted.
i have landed myself right where i want to be.
this is the adult that i am.
i relive every stupid thing we did every night, as i ease myself to sleep.
i would be content with your hatred or your love.
you fill every one of my thoughts with warm, fuzzy, beautiful, blissful ignorance.
this is what i tell myself.
i am that same temple, but restored. the cracks sealed away under a vague veneer of beauty.
keeping up appearances.
you are still in love, but not with me. that's ok.
you will go on with your security and your stability, being the adult that i couldn't.
that's alright.
you are adjusting.
living.
and i will spend the next two years in my room.
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